Cardi B has spoken for the first time on the guilt she felt canceling her Invasion of Privacy tour following the birth of her daughter, Kulture. In an interview with Rolling Stone, the 31-year-old “I Like It” rapper opened up about her path to motherhood, sharing insights into her life with her husband Offset and their two children: Wave, 2½, and Kulture, 5½.
Cardi welcomed her daughter just months after releasing her debut album, according to Rolling Stone. “I was really, really scared,” Cardi remembered of backing out of her tour. “I [felt] like, damn, I’m letting everybody down. I’m letting my family down. I’m letting everybody that works for me down.”
“My baby was so little — germs and planes and ear popping on a newborn?” Cardi asked. “Can you imagine a baby in a f—ing tour bus?”
Cardi compared her first year of motherhood to competing on a game show, admitting it left her feeling overwhelmed.
“Yo, postpartum is something you can’t even explain,” she said. Clarifying her struggle, Cardi added, “Postpartum everything. It becomes depression because it’s a drastic change.”
The rapper revealed she is currently searching for a nanny but is relying on her parents for support. She continued that though she appreciates their help, she sometimes feels she is overburdening them.
“I had them kids,” the mom of two told the outlet. “They came out of my p—-, not my mom’s. They mine.”
Despite her husband’s efforts to help now that he’s back from tour, Cardi admitted she still feels overwhelmed. She however told Rolling Stone, “My kids come first. My kids come before anything.”