I want to feel love.
I want to feel love
that doesn’t drive me to drinking
taking shots of anything
to feel like I’m floating
while I’m sinking…
I want to feel love
that rejects fear and jealousy
to gain security in life
seeking the convenience of safety
through all the chaos and strife…
I want to feel love
that doesn’t leave insecurities buried
beneath decades of evasion
projecting problems onto lovers
ignoring my own emotional incarceration…
I want to feel love.
If only I could stitch myself
back together
mending the wounds of time
as if poets earn medical degrees
diagnosing heartbreak
in each rhyme
So doctor, doctor
can’t you tell me
what’s the solution
for my condition
because some mornings
when sunshine peaks over
my windowsill
this life don’t seem worth living
I just don’t know
where to go from here
how to grow from here
or do anything more from here
except dry tears
from my eyes
And I’m immune
to bullshit prescriptions
claiming time heals all
because there’s far too many
broken lovers out there
who never recovered
from the fall
Perhaps doctor, doctor
there’s only one real cure
to ensure
I don’t feel this pain no more
Each morning
when I stare in the mirror
wiping sleep from dreary eyes
the truth becomes clearer:
seeing my reflection
tears down the façades
materialism power wealth
so despite my best efforts
I just can’t evade myself
Until solitude ceases
to taste like loneliness
love remains trapped
inside that pane of glass
taking the back seat
to your own life
through the lens of regret
you’ll see what’s passed…
Love yourself
and every fiber of who you are
spirit, mind, and body
whether your lover
is near or far
Love yourself
without limits or hesitations
no one else can save you
so be your own inspiration
and love yourself…
Love yourself.
