In an interview for Elle’s January 2020 issue, the 38-year-old mother of three who was responding candidly to a question about the relative success of her albums disclosed that those experiences changed her view on life.
“Success looks different to me now. I learned that all pain and loss is, in fact, a gift. Having miscarriages taught me that I had to mother myself before I could be a mother to someone else,” she said.
“Then I had Blue, and the quest for my purpose became so much deeper. I died and was reborn in my relationship, and the quest for self became even stronger,” Beyonce added.
This isn’t the first time Beyonce had spoken about the unfortunate incident. In her HBO documentary Life Is But a Dream in 2013, she described that moment as “the saddest thing I’ve ever been through.”
Her husband, Jay Z, also in his 2012 song Glory spoke about the emotional journey.
“Last time the miscarriage was so tragic, we was afraid you’d disappear, but nah, baby, you magic,” he sang of daughter Blue Ivy.
Beyonce and Jay Z have enjoyed relative success in the industry. Since the turn of the year, the duo have achieved new heights in the industry. Rapper Jay Z became the first Hip Hop Billionaire, while Beyonce penned a lucrative deal for the remake of Disney’s The Lion King.
The couple have welcomed twins, Sir and Rumi, after Blue Ivy.
Even in motherhood, the award winner highlighted the challenges between balancing career, business and family.
“Making sure I am present for my kids — dropping Blue off at school, taking Rumi and Sir to their activities, making time for date nights with my husband and being home in time to have dinner with my family — all while running a company can be challenging,” she told Elle.
According to the American College Of Obstetricians and Gynecologists, it’s estimated that about 10 percent of clinically recognized pregnancies end in a loss or miscarriage, with about 80 percent of those happening in the first trimester.